[ YOU REALLY HAD TO SNIPE HIM WITH THIS ONE, DIDN'T YOU. GODDAMN.
there's really just... so much here that kazuki feels like he could understand. not wanting to be left behind, wanting to help more than he's able, the constant worry of someone you care about in danger... even the inevitable lashing out against them, when you worry far too much and that feeling has nowhere to go, bottled up until the pressure is too much and it explodes outward.
ten months of that, now, and arguably the worst part is that he does understand why they do it, at least a little. but that doesn't make the fear go away, or the guilt or worry. it doesn't change much at all.
he has to take a deep breath once the memory fades out, in and out. ]
...Siffrin-san. [ hesitant, because it isn't something he'd normally ask, even in better circumstances. ] Can - Can I give you a hug?
[ score one for me for correctly guessing how to personally hurt with my memshare picks, yay!!!
Siffrin watches this memory play with so much warmth, fondness, love you can feel and see for one's family. A little embarrassing when it comes to some of their small (gentle) lash outs, to reaffirm to the preteen how important they are and how much Siffrin would be willing to do just to make sure they stay safe. But that's how it is. No matter what, he wants to protect them. Never bring any harm to them.
(Except there was a time where you failed.)
A bit of nausea turns in their stomach for a moment. Before the sound of that deep breath does make them release their own, until they look over at their name with a curious look. Only to quickly blink a bit but, despite the small confusion at the sudden request, they just offer a soft smile and small open of their arms. ]
[ A nice quiet hug, arms winding around for a small gentle squeeze. They have practice now with hugs! Not too stiff or awkward. There's a sheepish look at that as they part away and get asked that. ]
..It's just how I am, I guess? Whether it's someone I care about or a complete stranger, I sorta just... act. [ Move before they think. ]
..If it means protecting them, I can't just stop and think about it. Not when there are things that won't hesitate. [ Of course they don't want to worry people they care about but. They can't just not do nothing either. ]
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WEEK 3, MONDAY
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there's really just... so much here that kazuki feels like he could understand. not wanting to be left behind, wanting to help more than he's able, the constant worry of someone you care about in danger... even the inevitable lashing out against them, when you worry far too much and that feeling has nowhere to go, bottled up until the pressure is too much and it explodes outward.
ten months of that, now, and arguably the worst part is that he does understand why they do it, at least a little. but that doesn't make the fear go away, or the guilt or worry. it doesn't change much at all.
he has to take a deep breath once the memory fades out, in and out. ]
...Siffrin-san. [ hesitant, because it isn't something he'd normally ask, even in better circumstances. ] Can - Can I give you a hug?
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Siffrin watches this memory play with so much warmth, fondness, love you can feel and see for one's family. A little embarrassing when it comes to some of their small (gentle) lash outs, to reaffirm to the preteen how important they are and how much Siffrin would be willing to do just to make sure they stay safe. But that's how it is. No matter what, he wants to protect them. Never bring any harm to them.
(Except there was a time where you failed.)
A bit of nausea turns in their stomach for a moment. Before the sound of that deep breath does make them release their own, until they look over at their name with a curious look. Only to quickly blink a bit but, despite the small confusion at the sudden request, they just offer a soft smile and small open of their arms. ]
...Sure, Hoshino. You can.
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Do you always go out of your way for everyone else?
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..It's just how I am, I guess? Whether it's someone I care about or a complete stranger, I sorta just... act. [ Move before they think. ]
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Do you ever think about people like that Bonnie? How they worry about you doing things like that?
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..If it means protecting them, I can't just stop and think about it. Not when there are things that won't hesitate. [ Of course they don't want to worry people they care about but. They can't just not do nothing either. ]
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