★ ( ALLSTARZ: KAZUKI HOSINO. )

[siffrin]

im sorry i am bringing yet another time looper into kazuki's life

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[siffrin]

[ A small nod. ]

..I've gone through it before. So the process won't be.. too new for me.

[teenrebellion]

...That's not exactly reassuring, Siffrin-san. I think a lot of us didn't want this to happen.

[siffrin]

[ Apologetic smile. ]

Sorry. I.. didn't think it'd turn out this way.

[teenrebellion]

[ tilts head. ]

How did you think it would turn out?

[ no judgment, just genuine curiosity. ]

[siffrin]

That people would've looked at the lists we've had available.

[ You know, logically. ]

[teenrebellion]

I wouldn't say that wasn't a factor.

[ mouth check was based on that, artemy had so many votes too... ]

Not that I'm saying we did the right thing today because I have no idea what we did and I hate it. I just think everyone was confused and didn't know what to do.

[siffrin]

[ There was a lot to sudden point at their team so, in the end... ]

..Can't say I don't understand. I don't blame anyone that decided to choose my name over all else. [ A head tilt. ] ..People panicked, I just have to accept this outcome.

[teenrebellion]

Everyone always panics because no one wants to lose a friend. The whole point of these things is to make it harder on us because of the connections we make.

[siffrin]

[ Listens to this, goes quiet for a good while and... ]

..Can I ask something of you, Hoshino? [ A pause. ] I know you'll do it anyway but, look after Jonas? Since Heaven I'm sure he'll feel responsible but.. my voting out, it's not his fault.

[teenrebellion]

...You're right, I'd do that anyway. And believe me, I'll do everything I can think of for him. There's just - no other option.

I'm gonna try to convince him, but you know how he is, right? Whether he'll believe it... I don't know.

[siffrin]

[ No, they understand. It feels like there's no other option. What could they even say outside the obvious it's not something for him to burden himself with? ]

..He'll say he knows. But.. he'll still feel differently. [ Even none of it is in his control. God or not. Silly boy. ] The numbers were close to other people as well.. we couldn't have known which way it was being directed.

[teenrebellion]

[ kazuki sighs, running a hand through his hair. ]

Yeah. Sounds just like him. But I'll try to convince him, anyway, because it really, really isn't on him. [ he sighs. ] The others weren't really on the evidence lists, either. It all sucks, no matter how we look at it. Whoever dealt with Shen was probably possessed, too.

[siffrin]

[ Sorry to leave this on you, Kazuki. Their silly God, Jonas. ]

Thanks. [ A small pause, tilting their head. ] ..I'm sure they were possessed. If there's one thing consistent, it's there's always at least one that is every week. And there's nothing stopping from it being multiple people, either.

[teenrebellion]

[ it's as they said, he would've done this anyway. ]

Yeah... And that's something I've been worried about, too. Multiple people. Not that we can do anything about it, really, except hope they really do snap out of it later.

[siffrin]

It worked with Rosamund, who thought herself to be from Heaven... so I want to think they'll snap out of it. It's just a matter of trying to tell what is possession and what's...

[ Well, under their own decision. But. ] It'll be fine.

[teenrebellion]

That's kind of what I'm worried about - not knowing for sure.

...Maybe it will be, but it's still going to hurt people to lose you.

[siffrin]

[ Falters a little. Hurting people... ]

..I'll write the moment I can when I'm there.

[teenrebellion]

[ offers them a small smile. ]

I know Jonas especially would love to hear from you, if he can.