[ they should be angry. but maybe that's not siffrin. maybe siffrin is someone who accepts this sort of fate with grief rather than rage. and yet—it shouldn't be either.
they're all going to come back, and yet time feels cut so short. he takes a few steadying breaths, to try and wrangle himself back under control and failing. ]
You shouldn't. I was like that too, until— [ ... ] It was safe. Accepting things, and working hard for others, there's more than that. I don't want you to think—it was always going to end this way.
[ that because he loves rin, he can't also have wanted siffrin to live. it isn't like that. ]
I hope you can have some dreams that survive this, Siffrin.
[ Time will probably feel fleeting when it comes. Or maybe it'll feel like years. Time is such a finicky thing for them. When Haru takes those breaths, Siffrin takes them with him. Deep breaths in and out. To try and help encourage some of them. ]
..You don't have to worry about that. I didn't think it was always going to end this way. But because it did.. it's because of my past experiences, that it's easier for me to accept as is.
[ And again. He would have rather it be him here than someone like Rin. Than anyone in their team. At that comment about dreams, they almost want to laugh. It's just.. a little funny. That they're in this situation in the first place because of some silly nightmares. But it's sweet. ]
I hope so too, Haru.
[ One hand lets go, but only so they can reach in their pockets to settle a gift in Haru's hand. A whittled piece that's palm-sized. ]
Thank you for visiting me. [ For caring for someone like them. For sharing a bit of their time in their game before, the fishing, the silly rambles and nonsense the group has gone through. ] Just.. don't blame yourself for this and.. please make sure Rin understands that, too.
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they're all going to come back, and yet time feels cut so short. he takes a few steadying breaths, to try and wrangle himself back under control and failing. ]
You shouldn't. I was like that too, until— [ ... ] It was safe. Accepting things, and working hard for others, there's more than that. I don't want you to think—it was always going to end this way.
[ that because he loves rin, he can't also have wanted siffrin to live. it isn't like that. ]
I hope you can have some dreams that survive this, Siffrin.
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..You don't have to worry about that. I didn't think it was always going to end this way. But because it did.. it's because of my past experiences, that it's easier for me to accept as is.
[ And again. He would have rather it be him here than someone like Rin. Than anyone in their team. At that comment about dreams, they almost want to laugh. It's just.. a little funny. That they're in this situation in the first place because of some silly nightmares. But it's sweet. ]
I hope so too, Haru.
[ One hand lets go, but only so they can reach in their pockets to settle a gift in Haru's hand. A whittled piece that's palm-sized. ]
Thank you for visiting me. [ For caring for someone like them. For sharing a bit of their time in their game before, the fishing, the silly rambles and nonsense the group has gone through. ] Just.. don't blame yourself for this and.. please make sure Rin understands that, too.