[ A nod, but they seem to know their way around, since they're prepping and readying it and
bloop. Sliding right into the fishing mechanics. For a moment they watch the waters, waiting, until they glance over and give a small smile. ]
..Yeah, I do. Back in my world, it was.. a nice break from everything. Just sitting, waiting to get a bite. And even if I didn't get a bite, it was fine.
[ cute.... he'll go ahead and bait a rod too, watching the water. ]
Mm.
There's a lot of fishing boats where I'm from. But whenever I've done it, it's just for fun. [ clearing his mind. ] It's not bad to take a break and enjoy the quiet sometimes.
Fishing boats? You live close to the sea then? [ A small nod in agreement. Of course, their own reasons was something to enjoy in the middle of their time loops but, not really the topic to go into while fishing. ] I wish Heaven had a place to fish properly like this. I would've spent most of my day probably doing it. At least until night fall.
It's okay. I think.. the way things were going, we've would have had to be really lucky to have gotten it right.
[ A shake of their head, quiet, holding their hand out for him to take if he'd like. And though they've been using his last name before, their voice speaks softly.. ]
[ lucky... he doesn't know. how much of this falls on luck, grasping at right straws. he's still restless, practically pacing before he stops at his own name.
so though he looks a little cautious, he does stop to take their hand. squeezing it a little as he nods. anything. ]
[ At that hand, and followed squeeze, they don't say anything right away. There's flicks of uncertainty... looking off to the side, their hand fidgeting before they look straight into Haru's eyes. ]
Just.. look after Rin and yourself, okay? [ Seeing Haru in this state.. some things click in place, and now they're worried about not being able to keep an eye on them on this side. But there's no stopping that. ] None of this is something you both should blame yourself for.
[ And then, a small smile to reassure. ] There will still be letters. I'll try not to sound as crazy as the others.
[ his voice dips. what devastating understanding. he shakes his head vigorously. ]
I don't know... about Rin. [ there's some real, raw uncertainty there. ] But if he did it, then it wasn't in the right mind. He couldn't have been. [ ... ] I'm sane. I could've... done something. Deflected the blame, or—
[ he tries to look at them properly, sincere. ]
I didn't want people looking at Rin. But I didn't want them looking at you, either.
[ There's answering quiet as they listen, holding onto that hand but gently squeezing it between both their own now. Something comforting. Reassuring. ]
I know. ..Rin is very kind-hearted, caring, I know he wouldn't do it in his right mind. [ There's understanding there and something else. As their gazes meet, their expression remains concerned, worried. ]
You protect each other. That's why.. I know you'll be able to be there for him. [ For a moment, they look like they want to say something else, but they shake their head. ] I don't mind that it was me. Like you, I didn't want Rin to be looked at either. So.. what happens next, it'll be okay.
[ Rin, Artemy, anyone from their team for that matter. But more worried are they for Haru in this moment. ]
[ he feels insane, being comforted by someone who's going to die tomorrow for no reason. and why? because haru wasn't loud enough, wasn't thinking fast enough. ]
Don't. [ he grips their hand hard. ] Don't hold back on what you were going to say. Just... tell me. Be honest. Be angry, if that's what you want.
I want— [ he just lets out an aggravated, small noise. he's not good at this, at talking and expressing himself, and it comes out a little loud, ] it's not okay!
[ he doesn't need concern. he wants someone to upset for siffrin, whether it them or him or all the people here. ] I'll protect Rin. I'll always protect him. But I only have today with you!
[ Their expression softens a little at those words. If because, there's no anger. There's.. no blame here. Even if nobody voiced any louder, even though they didn't fight themselves a little harder, even though no one tried hard enough to disprove.. ]
..I'm not angry. [ Doesn't mind that hard squeeze. At that frustrated sound, at that display as he tries to figure himself out before them. Honesty.. there's so much they could say, but so much they can't. Because how could they tell someone like Haru they're fine with dying? They've died so many times, it came as naturally as breathing. That's insane. They can't just say that. ]
I'm just... tired. [ There's a spike of loneliness, ache, to hear only having today. Last today with their team, with some of the people they go to see for their silly after dinners, their ridiculous messages on the phone. A deep breath out. ] I appreciated being included in things. That you and the others considered me. That you trusted me to help out.
[ Even though realistically, Siffrin didn't do much? If anything, they just kinda hung around but. It was still fun. Made them appreciate the connections all the more. ] ..There's a lot I'm used to it so it's just.. easy for me to accept things as they are.
[ they should be angry. but maybe that's not siffrin. maybe siffrin is someone who accepts this sort of fate with grief rather than rage. and yet—it shouldn't be either.
they're all going to come back, and yet time feels cut so short. he takes a few steadying breaths, to try and wrangle himself back under control and failing. ]
You shouldn't. I was like that too, until— [ ... ] It was safe. Accepting things, and working hard for others, there's more than that. I don't want you to think—it was always going to end this way.
[ that because he loves rin, he can't also have wanted siffrin to live. it isn't like that. ]
I hope you can have some dreams that survive this, Siffrin.
[ Time will probably feel fleeting when it comes. Or maybe it'll feel like years. Time is such a finicky thing for them. When Haru takes those breaths, Siffrin takes them with him. Deep breaths in and out. To try and help encourage some of them. ]
..You don't have to worry about that. I didn't think it was always going to end this way. But because it did.. it's because of my past experiences, that it's easier for me to accept as is.
[ And again. He would have rather it be him here than someone like Rin. Than anyone in their team. At that comment about dreams, they almost want to laugh. It's just.. a little funny. That they're in this situation in the first place because of some silly nightmares. But it's sweet. ]
I hope so too, Haru.
[ One hand lets go, but only so they can reach in their pockets to settle a gift in Haru's hand. A whittled piece that's palm-sized. ]
Thank you for visiting me. [ For caring for someone like them. For sharing a bit of their time in their game before, the fishing, the silly rambles and nonsense the group has gone through. ] Just.. don't blame yourself for this and.. please make sure Rin understands that, too.
[ Sirius is SO SPOILED, they're sooo happy to be carried and curl up like baby. ]
Let's go then. [ ONTO FLIGHT... which fortunately happen so quickly even if they feel weird. Heaven Neighborhood gets them distracted for a bit, even as they shake their head. ] No, we couldn't exactly fly out like you guys can here. We still had new places popping up but they were...
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..Does a place like this really need something like that?
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From the sounds of it, maybe.
[ he is not on the verge of tears right now though. ]
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[ we should find out. Gonna actually step in to look around. BROWSE THE CRYING ROOM. ]
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Is it better as a solo activity...?
[ yes but that just sounds sad ]
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Well.. as a group activity it sounds more embarrassing?
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I guess it's embarrassing either way.
[ despite being a SENSITIVE TEEN he is not much for crying. ]
I wonder why someone would design a room like this... [ is it to be nice, or to be rude ]
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Someone might think it a good idea. But don't know how many people are willing to be so vulnerable with others.
[ We are people not very willing. ]
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Not many? [ maybe rin. ] It feels kind of dangerous in a place like this.
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I guess if you get comfortable enough with your team...
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...Or with strangers.
[ APPARENTLY ]
Do you have something in your eye?
[ haru says, despite also being misty-eyed ]
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[ IT'S NOT. Starts wiping at their eye, squinting out into the room. ]
These rooms probably haven't been used in a while.
[ How many months or years has it been that this airport has been in use. ]
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they're at the homos underground lake. ]
...This place really does look the same as ever.
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Did you come here a lot?
[ ...Except they're beelining to the fishing poles. Grabbing one, looking it over with familiarity. ]
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[ two cute nickles
he'll come over to the fishing rods too, of course. watching siff curiously. ]
...It's pretty fun, too. Do you like fishing?
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bloop. Sliding right into the fishing mechanics. For a moment they watch the waters, waiting, until they glance over and give a small smile. ]
..Yeah, I do. Back in my world, it was.. a nice break from everything. Just sitting, waiting to get a bite. And even if I didn't get a bite, it was fine.
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Mm.
There's a lot of fishing boats where I'm from. But whenever I've done it, it's just for fun. [ clearing his mind. ] It's not bad to take a break and enjoy the quiet sometimes.
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Fishing boats? You live close to the sea then? [ A small nod in agreement. Of course, their own reasons was something to enjoy in the middle of their time loops but, not really the topic to go into while fishing. ] I wish Heaven had a place to fish properly like this. I would've spent most of my day probably doing it. At least until night fall.
WEEK 3, MONDAY
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...A friend of yours?
[ they seem a little snide, but not impossibly mean. ]
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Yeah. One of the people in my group that I've been traveling with.
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They seem like they've been on a long journey.
[ of finding who they are, but also on whatever travel that siff has been doing too. ]
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..Finding where she belongs. Learn more about her origins. [ Must be nice.. Siffrin wouldn't know.
but also me holds paw. give me a free mem as i succumb to the graveyard pits. ]
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Siffrin— [ PULLS ON THE SECURITY CAGE BARS LIKE THIS WILL DO ANYTHING ]
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I'm here - it's okay. See? [ Gestures like seeing them calm and okay will reassure him. ]
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he eases up a little, though he still sort of anxiously tries to find a way to get him out of there. ]
...Siffrin. I'm sorry. We got it wrong.
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[ A shake of their head, quiet, holding their hand out for him to take if he'd like. And though they've been using his last name before, their voice speaks softly.. ]
..Can I ask you something, Haru?
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so though he looks a little cautious, he does stop to take their hand. squeezing it a little as he nods. anything. ]
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Just.. look after Rin and yourself, okay? [ Seeing Haru in this state.. some things click in place, and now they're worried about not being able to keep an eye on them on this side. But there's no stopping that. ] None of this is something you both should blame yourself for.
[ And then, a small smile to reassure. ] There will still be letters. I'll try not to sound as crazy as the others.
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[ his voice dips. what devastating understanding. he shakes his head vigorously. ]
I don't know... about Rin. [ there's some real, raw uncertainty there. ] But if he did it, then it wasn't in the right mind. He couldn't have been. [ ... ] I'm sane. I could've... done something. Deflected the blame, or—
[ he tries to look at them properly, sincere. ]
I didn't want people looking at Rin. But I didn't want them looking at you, either.
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I know. ..Rin is very kind-hearted, caring, I know he wouldn't do it in his right mind. [ There's understanding there and something else. As their gazes meet, their expression remains concerned, worried. ]
You protect each other. That's why.. I know you'll be able to be there for him. [ For a moment, they look like they want to say something else, but they shake their head. ] I don't mind that it was me. Like you, I didn't want Rin to be looked at either. So.. what happens next, it'll be okay.
[ Rin, Artemy, anyone from their team for that matter. But more worried are they for Haru in this moment. ]
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Don't. [ he grips their hand hard. ] Don't hold back on what you were going to say. Just... tell me. Be honest. Be angry, if that's what you want.
I want— [ he just lets out an aggravated, small noise. he's not good at this, at talking and expressing himself, and it comes out a little loud, ] it's not okay!
[ he doesn't need concern. he wants someone to upset for siffrin, whether it them or him or all the people here. ] I'll protect Rin. I'll always protect him. But I only have today with you!
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..I'm not angry. [ Doesn't mind that hard squeeze. At that frustrated sound, at that display as he tries to figure himself out before them. Honesty.. there's so much they could say, but so much they can't. Because how could they tell someone like Haru they're fine with dying? They've died so many times, it came as naturally as breathing. That's insane. They can't just say that. ]
I'm just... tired. [ There's a spike of loneliness, ache, to hear only having today. Last today with their team, with some of the people they go to see for their silly after dinners, their ridiculous messages on the phone. A deep breath out. ] I appreciated being included in things. That you and the others considered me. That you trusted me to help out.
[ Even though realistically, Siffrin didn't do much? If anything, they just kinda hung around but. It was still fun. Made them appreciate the connections all the more. ] ..There's a lot I'm used to it so it's just.. easy for me to accept things as they are.
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they're all going to come back, and yet time feels cut so short. he takes a few steadying breaths, to try and wrangle himself back under control and failing. ]
You shouldn't. I was like that too, until— [ ... ] It was safe. Accepting things, and working hard for others, there's more than that. I don't want you to think—it was always going to end this way.
[ that because he loves rin, he can't also have wanted siffrin to live. it isn't like that. ]
I hope you can have some dreams that survive this, Siffrin.
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..You don't have to worry about that. I didn't think it was always going to end this way. But because it did.. it's because of my past experiences, that it's easier for me to accept as is.
[ And again. He would have rather it be him here than someone like Rin. Than anyone in their team. At that comment about dreams, they almost want to laugh. It's just.. a little funny. That they're in this situation in the first place because of some silly nightmares. But it's sweet. ]
I hope so too, Haru.
[ One hand lets go, but only so they can reach in their pockets to settle a gift in Haru's hand. A whittled piece that's palm-sized. ]
Thank you for visiting me. [ For caring for someone like them. For sharing a bit of their time in their game before, the fishing, the silly rambles and nonsense the group has gone through. ] Just.. don't blame yourself for this and.. please make sure Rin understands that, too.
WEEK 7, MONDAY
Hey Haru. I was just on my way to Heaven... interested in some fishing?
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I'd like that.
Were you all able to go to places like Heaven too?
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Let's go then. [ ONTO FLIGHT... which fortunately happen so quickly even if they feel weird. Heaven Neighborhood gets them distracted for a bit, even as they shake their head. ] No, we couldn't exactly fly out like you guys can here. We still had new places popping up but they were...
Very strange.
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Strange how...?