I don't know. I feel like.. it should be easy to figure it out. Meeting so many different people, in Heaven, some of them again here and even new... but everything before was... failing, broken, rotting. What if the loops made things even more broken in the long run?
[ What makes it so hard? They listen though, picking up on that mention again. ] And your loops.. it was the both of you?
[ Just keeps their head there, resting it, an apologetic look at their bonk. Sorry, sorry. Bringing it up seems like it'll just make things worse. The potential team erasure, so. They just push that thought away for now. Focus on them both here. ]
I don't know if "easy" is the word I would use. Think it's more like... the longer you're out, the more new experiences you have, and the more you have, the easier it is to see that it's not a loop because things are impacted by your choices in different ways. Maybe the loop caused more problems in the long run, but... at the same time, being outside of it now means you stand a chance of changing it. Other people are here to help, too.
[ ... but yeah, about that. ]
It was both of us though, yeah. Alex was always better at telling when we looped than I was, but I started picking up on it the longer it went. [ reaches through the bars to pat their hair again. no more bonks. ]
[ Even if they desperately miss their family back home, too. Fighting so hard to have them only to lose them again. The naturally cling to those they know from Heaven here. It isn't that he doesn't believe his words but... shaking off nearly two hundred loops is more difficult than they expected it to be. ]
A bit different in the way that Loop was technically going alongside it with me. [ Since only Siffrin really was the one on stage during their loops but. ] So.. that's the connection you have with her.
It's not a perfect solution, but it's a start. And everyone has to start somewhere.
[ it's about the possibilities, even if it isn't the end all be all. there are always going to be things that can't be fixed, but it's about growing from them and taking the trauma and pain and adjusting with them. those are his thoughts, anyway. ]
I guess it's a little different, yeah. Alex and I did everything together and spent each loop together. She remembered them clearly, and there's a lot I don't. [ but there's a shrug. ] She was my best friend. Even our other friends who were in the loop with us... it's a little different.
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[ What makes it so hard? They listen though, picking up on that mention again. ] And your loops.. it was the both of you?
[ Just keeps their head there, resting it, an apologetic look at their bonk. Sorry, sorry. Bringing it up seems like it'll just make things worse. The potential team erasure, so. They just push that thought away for now. Focus on them both here. ]
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[ ... but yeah, about that. ]
It was both of us though, yeah. Alex was always better at telling when we looped than I was, but I started picking up on it the longer it went. [ reaches through the bars to pat their hair again. no more bonks. ]
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[ Even if they desperately miss their family back home, too. Fighting so hard to have them only to lose them again. The naturally cling to those they know from Heaven here. It isn't that he doesn't believe his words but... shaking off nearly two hundred loops is more difficult than they expected it to be. ]
A bit different in the way that Loop was technically going alongside it with me. [ Since only Siffrin really was the one on stage during their loops but. ] So.. that's the connection you have with her.
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[ it's about the possibilities, even if it isn't the end all be all. there are always going to be things that can't be fixed, but it's about growing from them and taking the trauma and pain and adjusting with them. those are his thoughts, anyway. ]
I guess it's a little different, yeah. Alex and I did everything together and spent each loop together. She remembered them clearly, and there's a lot I don't. [ but there's a shrug. ] She was my best friend. Even our other friends who were in the loop with us... it's a little different.